homestay
Stress mode.. ON!
Fuck it.. got prob wif the homestay..
I respect them.. i knw i live in their hse.. i follow their fukin rule..
I helped them do their chores (which im not suppose to do).. I say sorry even though im not in the wrong..
I showed them my generousity.. I fuckin do whatever they ask even tho they're not my parents..
Bahh.. Guess, this is the result bein good.. They wanna play? I'll show em what MEAN is..
Fuck.. ended up wif a person wif split personality.. I dont mind her complainin. It's her hse anyway.. But.. I fukin hate bein shouted or yelled by others.. Even if i did DO wrong.. cant she just tell me peacefully? wyf wif her dogs.. I just dont like em in my room.. cant I? "I cant take it anymore.. Michael, If you got any prob wif the dogs, you could find another homestay"..
Yea right.. you dont need to yell.. I got EARS! not only one.. but a pair of them.. I'll bloody take my ass off your fukin roof..
Who the fuck wanna stay wif paranoid like you?
Stress mode.. OFF!
pheww.. haha.. everythin is out..fells better.. haha.. Guess when ppl become older.. They become more sensitive.
This is what happen to my 'host mum'.. man.. The 1st few days.. She is nice.. very nice.. as time flies, her true colour reveals.. Yea.. I wonder how her husband could tahan bein yelled by her almost evryday because of tiny things... Gosh.. she is damn pesky.. Just a lil mistake and she freakin yell to let the world know..
No no no.. that aint cool..
this adds up the criteria for my "dream" wife.. LOL..
-she must be able to talk things peacefully..
Signin Off
~MikeZ~
bachelor
Gosh, on my mission to hunt dwn apartment...
Homestay quite nice.. But still,
Schl started at 8 and end at 5.. If i wanna hang ard wif friends.. I could be back at home ard 10 or 11..
And.. I guess it wun be nice for them to be bothered n disturbed that late at nite..
How nice would it be to get to stay in an apartment..
Yea.. no adult bein bothered..
You could came home as late as you can..
If nth to do, call your homies and they'll fly over your roof in a jiffy..
Now im trying to find a studio apartment (bachelor room/1 person hse)..
or i could find a 2 or 3 bedroom apartment.. (share wif friends!)
Guess it would be tough.. haha..
Gotta study, clean the hse, cook, laundry, etc..
man.. im gonna be a SUPERMAN.. haha..
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Shit.. got a shitty Phy and Maths teacher..
Fuk them! i wanna my secondary life back!!
arghhh... wth is all my fun??!!!
Signin off
~MikeZ~
if it pleases you
Time does heal all the wound.. But.
time tries to steal my past memories..
memories that hurts.. realli hurts..
that memories also comes with the sweet one..
shall i let time consume them all?
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Gosh.. schl has started for 1 week..
met all kinda ppl..
yea.. lotsa ppl frm my race..
ahah.. some are nice...
but some.. fuck em..
does smokin pot makes em so big?
bunch 'f mummy's boys...
schl quite nice... the subj are competitive..
but.. timing are sucks.. frm 8 am to 5 pm..
Gosh.. Where e hell are the time to lax?
took 4 subj..
-Maths
fukin maths teacher.. 1st time i hate my maths teacher.. He's like dead person talkin..
no energy.. he need to sleep more.. got Ph.D er? How i wish more model girls takin Ph.D and teach me maths..
LOL.. just my imagination..
-Physics
Hmm.. flipped open the phyics book.. shocked to see.. I've learnt most of em like.. years ago back in Indo..
Shyt. i couldn recall most of em.. poor memory..
Man.. Indonesian's curriculum is really good.. But y there're lotsa idiots? just like me..
-English
Best!!! 1st time i really njoy english lesson.. we ate and drink coffee while discussing things.. It's really fun..
no pressure YET.. haha..
-Economic
Bloody hell! It's University subj.. the lecturer just tok n tok.. ppl ard me scribblin notes..
but wtf he's tokin abt.. i cldn catch ani.. this proves.. Im still aint gud enuff..
Or maybe im not born businessman? LOL.. nth impossible for me!! Go go mike!!.. lol.. self encourage..
Livin here.. alone.. blehh..it sux. But.. I've faced this before.. shld be no prob..
the weather is sucky.. sux!! Now it's freakin -8 degree outside.. even my saliva freeze in seconds..
A few days on afternoon.. it's just 3 degree.. got once 0 degree.. fuck it.. how to study in half frostbite state...
think of my life...
as long as i live, i learn..
haha...
guess it's right.. still got tons to learn.. ppl could only learn when they do mistakes.. been reflectin on my mistakes..
bahh.. realize im real idiot.. haha..
how i wish i could spin back time...
gosh.. haha.. dunno y i suddenly feel this dwn.. anyway.. on 'depressed' mood now..
man.. been questionin mah self..
what the fuck am i doin here?
Is coming here really for my own good?
i miss the old times. miss the days i fool ard.. and give ppl 'i dont give a damn' attitiude..
but since i stepped out frm that country.. things have been diff..
really different.. i still have the fun.. but.. where is my 'i dont give a damn'?
fuk it.. all tats left is burden.. guess i aint got any choise..
but to carry it all e way on this journey..
signin off
~Mikez~
my head weight tons..
Im not perfect.. noone is perfect.. i do wrong.. everybody does wrong..
Hmm, maybe the way i present my words make you feel insulted.. make it looks like im symphatizing you.. but.. im not!.. what the hell am i symphatising you for? I hope this misunderstandin can be settled..
Hmm.. not only my words are wrong.. Even my attitiude is not right.. I've think about my attitude this whole day and still.. i cant find the answer.. Ive said many many times.. Im not perfect... if something is wrong about my attitude that you dont seems to like.. just speak it out.. I mean.. thats friends are for right? to correct you when you're in the wrong.. Maybe im just some cust who cant call you 'sayang'.. I sorry.. I dont even know that you care to be called that..
I still dont get it.. Is it diff to speak out my mistake?.. What type of attitude u expect from me.. Cant we have a good chat about it?.. Hey.. Things wun get fixed.. If we didn start it..
Signin off
~MikeZ~
"dont pop into my life ever.never.thanks and have a nice and pleasant day."I hope its just a sudden impulse of yours.. but still...
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i still dont get it.. what did i do wrong..
enlighten me...
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Haha.. i got a load of things in my mind but still.. i dont feel like listing the whole QN mark in my head... come to think about it.. you're contradicting yourself.. nvm abt that.. after all these things.. u say u wished that u nvr met me before.. hmm.. means.. i need to thank you.. For coping n tolerating all my crap.. All men are bastard.. guess I was just another bastard..
just like the 10000000XXXxx others out there,typical.
After I think about it.. I was made of what I belief.. haha.. But.. noone is perfect.. I still do mistakes.. so does everyone.. In this kind of situation, all i can
Fuck it.. dun feel like continuin.. haha.. sorry guys.. gotta go rest :)
Signin Off
~MikeZ~
orientation
Yea.. today 1st day f college.. cant say much.. orientation.. free lunch.. quite lil ppl come coz pourin like shiit!! omg.. winter + rain.. no good -_-.. Anyway.. just when im about to sit.. my ear radar found some indonesian slang.. Bahh.. haha.. uhh noo.. Quite lotsa Indon ppl.. N they say summore will come tmr?! OMG.. i allergic? LOL.. cant say tat.. They my ppl.
The coordinator give the student some tour ard the college.. not bad.. got student lounge.. can play pool.. haha.. Yay.. no need like spore go RC waste money.. haha.. here play for free.. everyday.. Went back spore can kick some ass liao.. haha.. Good thing is.. they got their Gym across the street.. Juz show them your ID card n you could come in for free.. haha.. nice.. yea.. thats 2 of the thing i love most about the college.. haha..
Hmm.. WTF!! i still need to went for placement test! they'll test my english n maths.. -_-!!! I really nvr know got such test.. they ask us to sit n suddenly take.. bahh.. The reason i take O level is just to avoid these replacement test so i could just went n study.. WTFFFFFFF.. yea.. *Michael dun complain too much pls ~ remember yr NY resolution...
yea. after the whole thing make my 1st fren here.. ahah.. Hongkong ppl n Indo ppl.. went to Metrotown.. biggest shopping centre in Vancouver... (2 blocks away frm my hse)
Guess what.. i saw the most displeasing things in my eyes today.. bahh.. i think ppl here has lesser shy bone than i have.. Quess what.. Im in a Zara shop browsing something to buy.. As i browse, i saw a couple in frnt of me.. Suddenly, the man grope the gal's butt.. (she wear Super mini skirt!!) Yea.. the guy is pleasing his hand till the gal sway his hand away n they started to hug flirt ard.. gosh.. I dunno if its me thats who conservative or that's normal in daily life.. haha.. Maybe its just me.. lol. Not my prob anyway.. lol..
Yea.. went home.. done nth. but. yea.. met new friend.. todays good..
tmr gonna be better.. yea!
signin off
~MikeZ~
